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[Oct. 18th, 2009|06:47 pm] |
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Now for this sudden update of lj, well it's nothing sad, nothing secretive. Reason being Blogger is taking centuries to load. And it always does whenever i got this sudden urge to update my blog and share a particular feeling. How annoying!
Yeah. So anyway, school's startin' tomorrow and i dont know if im looking foward to it or what. I know this makes me sound like a mugger but honestly, whenever im real bored at home, i cant help but to pick up some random notes from my shelf to flip. But in poly, it's kinda pointless to do so since whatever we'd be doing for the next sem has pretty much nothiing to do with the notes from the previous sem.
And also poly holidays are totally different with jc holidays...
Moreover, im kinda afraid to face my cp, afterall, she actually did have high hopes on me, top 10% in course, my foot. It's like ever since after the 1st term break, i find it very hard to get back the study pace already, since poly's vacation is PURELY vacation, with NO revision required or going back to school for supplementary lessons/remedials. You tend to rot and forget how to write.
All these is making me L.A.Z.Y.
Im so gonna study and pay attention during lectures already. No more skipping or sleeping through lectures, no more being complacent, but all these are just words, it's just a matter of fulfilling them.
Woohoo -.- |
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[Sep. 29th, 2009|11:41 am] |
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Dunno why am i posting this either. But i just need somebody, something, some place to let me pour everything.
You know, i really hate to show the weak side of me, it's really unbearable and feels stuffy inside there, that little corner. Im not gonna cry becos of something that ive just read or seen becos it's totally stupid and it's totally impossible to bring back anything.
But why do i keep touching "it" when i know it would make me uncomfortable.
WHY IN THE WORLD cant i listen to what i try to quote?
ok wtf is wrong with me -.-
This post is totally meaningless, whatever words that i try to put here can never ever express the feelings inside me, it's difficult to talk to people who are close to me becos they dont understand the whole situation for so long, nobody has totally understand everything, well perhaps maybe except one.
ahhhhh do you think brain washing myself will help? or should i just bang the wall or get into an accident so that i can forget everything and act like an idiot.
goddamn it this is outrageous.
dont tell me you're confused, because im confused with myself too.
just shut it and TIME CAN FKING WASH AWAY EVERYTHING.
im entrusting my brains to you.
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[Sep. 10th, 2009|08:01 am] |
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I dont understand. I DONT UNDERSTAND.
Right, after all that we've done, chasing you guys about everything, over everything. You can just shove it aside and ask us to ditch the idea of everything that we've tried to put in place? YOU contribute nothing, all YOU do is speak with that fantastic english of yours, to make out an idea which you think is awesome.
DID you even put yourself in our shoes and understand how we feel?
AFTER ALL THE FKING THINGS WE TRIED TO PUT TOGETHER?
ALL THE FRUSTRATIONS AND AGITATION WE HAD TO BEAR?
All you said was that simple 2 sentences. So do you think everybody think like you?
God you're seriously startin to piss me off, and not just becos of this incident itself, it's all accumulated down, from the day we started to do our Ps, EVERYTHING ALRIGHT.
Can you just friggin take out that mask of yours -.-
Now i wonder how you had spent your years studying.
You can just jolly well rot at home, it's cheap. |
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[Aug. 26th, 2009|11:13 pm] |
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I'm missing some people.
People whom i've yet to meet for a year or so.
But i dont have the courage to ask them out, because im afraid of awkwardness.
Afraid that there's nothing much to communicate about already.
Dang. |
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[Aug. 13th, 2009|12:19 pm] |
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Whoever said Poly is slack is screwed up in the mind.
Just go away.
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